Desirable Nerve
Source:Artintern Author:Yan Yi Date: 2008-05-02 Size:
In rose blooming soil, woman’s lip opens up desire, eyes becoming mixed-up. These sweet spirits still treasure metaphor for rose-----love, beauty, woman, desire…….I see them still suffer eternal rose which stings their body and wish. Who endows them with strong rosy flavor? And

In rose blooming soil, woman’s lip opens up desire, eyes becoming mixed-up. These sweet spirits still treasure metaphor for rose-----love, beauty, woman, desire…….I see them still suffer eternal rose which stings their body and wish.

Who endows them with strong rosy flavor? And light in rosy aroma? In storyline, heroine pose voluptuously with her rose giving off aroma. They subdue feeling of being controlled by beautiful, sweet, nice and chase the rainbows about pride in safe fortress. However, like primary mild romantic love promise and passionate beautiful fantasy passing heterosexual, realistic dangerous shoal blocks dreams of a journey and full of disappointment. Eyes become dumpish and dumpish eyes see turbulent times.

 

What they chase is another impossible existing. In the metaphysics sexy binary opposite social phalanx,what she is under coat of depressed culture? What is the living creature individual under various wrappage suit called “status ”. For every person, distinguishing between sexes is always wagging between two poles. So how can social man or woman be identified by concept? Complicated, inosculated, jumbled, maybe entirely different sex is covered up under clothes. Distinguishing between sexes by theory is just as putting on a ridiculous coat. This kind of culture practice sometimes makes a joke seemingly right but actually wrong. When feminism fighting for right of equal to man in symbol sequence with equal status suffers invisible damage, or emphases different sexes and defies man sequence, and traps into swirl of discrimination of reverse direction sex, I see them in a dilemma no alternative. She is evicted from the old and survival domain and flees from the tripping herself domain, but she is guided to the concealing herself domain or continually becomes heterosexual domain. It is difficult for her to distinguish false or truth in mixed-up environment and conceal in crowed space. Between ideal mobility and genetic fate, how to evaluate those methods which can help women find original nature? Some speak or behave as others do without views of their own, some become fighter, some die, also some can born again…..I learn the trail I have trekked surprisingly, and the woman who wants free and wants to maintain original room and can’t walk in and go out and begins to act by herself body to look for comfort. So , she begins to “self-spit” and ”self-hyperplasia” and dish up the old stuff in new form and fall in love with herself. She creates herself in narrow room on the base of dissimilation, remolds self, seeks self in assimilation element, imagine self in forgot corner. She is agonizing, willful, beautiful, lazy, happy, mild, smart, industrious, rational, perceptual and often contact herself. Sometimes ,she divides some gossip, a exclamatory mark, half secret, a hem and haw words. Sometimes she speak out a long dialogue, amazing prophet, soul secret.

Moulding different symbol and depicting invariable essence show inside contradictory and picture soul projects. They can write such works as “Missing”, ”Twins”, ”Perplexity”……. Some of them amaze, some of them slacken, some of them tease, some seem to gaze,miss, lose, illicit and pormography. All of them are seeming right but actually wrong. These spirit imagines closely connect to desire awesomely----I find floating ideal, variable individual, illusory love……….but desire is eternal invariable. From past to now, on the journey of affection, what we do is to change propulsion in desire into reality. Desire lies between reality and ideal, hides between sad eyes and lips, dance in changing relationship between subject and object, stay in attracting and gap between form and content, is ruler behind the curtain of eternal “love apotheosis”, is envoy of “sexual instinct”, is beautiful and sorrowful, is man, is woman. Desire mixes in love and sexual spirit chain what I depict, of course and evolve in sexual mark of my “work waking love”.

  

I finally find my secret desire has a connection with outer secret divine essence. On journey, I peep sorrow of desire. Desire opens love never endings of these changeable women on different journey. I, as a spectator, see all the women in transience live in past while at present, stay in traditional bay while contemporary wharf. Maybe all the roads are full of barriers, but they can walk and finish them.

They like virgin who come from history, full of desire, and bring recovering cut. Their existing shows all is possible such as existentialism, relative theory, afterworld predecessor. There is no need to notice she is in the position of hypotaxis or dominance, because she is experience and theoretical expression. Her body is full of immigration of pituitary and every pin-hole is sacred shelter. She should do what she likes as her own wishes.

[Editor] Mark Lee

    Artintern